Sunday, 27 March 2011


’For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’’ Jeremiah 29:11.

God has a plan for each and every one of us. His time is always the best (Trust me).  We all have something we are praying to God for, the fact he hasn’t answered your prayer doesn’t mean he has left or forgotten about you.
 When things are not working our way we need to check ourselves and see what we are doing wrong, someone once said to me ‘’ You can’t be in sin and expect God to listen to you’’ .  Just like our parent won’t listen to us if we ask them for something after disobeying them.  Sometimes if things are not going according to plan we should know he has bigger thing in store for us.
Sometimes we try to play God by ‘’DIYing’’ our situations thereby missing out on what God is about to do in our lives.  We cannot compare our best with God’s best.

All what this is about is that no matter how long you have been praying for that Job, that husband/wife, that visa or whatever you are praying to God for, he can hear you why don’t you start praising him for the answered prayer and remember CHRIST IN YOU IS THE HOPE OF  GlORY and GOD IS NEVER TOO LATE!

Sunday, 20 March 2011


They say Love is blind and Marriage is an eye-opener. I never really understood these words until now.
I met Sam back university. He was every girl’s dream, he had lots of admirers, which included  me, Sam had all the qualities a girl could ever want in a man, talk of looks, height, charm, brain, personality.... he had it all, and did i mention he was a power dresser?
 I was thrilled when he chose me among all the numerous girls drooling over him.  We started our relationship and i must confess Sam was a gentleman, he was caring, loving and everything a girl could ever imagine but at the same time, he was very jealous and obsessive and i loved it.  I thought it showed he really loved and cared about me, so when he proposed, it was the best thing in the world, i was overjoyed. I still remembered how he did it... he came to my house and we went to the beach, the mid-summer sun was high in the sky and the sun-tanned air mixed with the breeze conjured an indescribable romantic ambience around us. He looked at me for a second and went on one knee and in the sand at my feet he wrote ‘’ WILL YOU MARRY ME?’’ call it lame or old- fashioned, i thought it was romantic; i screamed and yelled ’’ Yes’’! Little did i know it would be the beginning of my anguish.
It started one afternoon when he came back from his outing and found me lying on the sofa in the living room, his scream woke me up. ‘’ Why the f**k are you sleeping in the living room... Don’t you have a room anymore?’’  Before i could utter a reply he shoved me aside and went straight to the bedroom, i followed him and tried to explain that i had been cleaning and cooking, then fell asleep in the living room but he wouldn’t hear it. Later in the night while i was changing to my PJ, he came to the room and put his arm round my waist.
‘’ Honey, am sorry i acted silly earlier... I had a terrible day. I promise it won’t happen again’’.  I forgave him cos he said it would not happen again. Oh did i mention he’s a house husband?
He decided not to look for another job after he was dismissed from his previous job. We have been living on my income as a nurse, and anytime i tell him to look for a job, he takes it personal and leaves home for days, he comes back home drunk and vicious.
 He came back on evening after he had left home for 3 good days, i decided to question is action but a re-sounding ear deafening slap was delivered to my left cheeks. I held on tight to my cheeks as i couldn’t believe he did it again.
‘’ Sam you promised never to slap me again’’
‘’ I will do it again and again if you do not shut your thrash. Are you drunk? And by the way who the hell are you to question my movement? Oh is it because you have a job and i don’t? So you think you think you are the boss of me abi?’’  I couldn’t believe my ears. This is not the man i married couple of years back, what happened to my Sam? Where did i go wrong? I kept thinking, this abuse is getting too much, i can’t call the police because i am still madly in love with him and i don’t want to end my marriage now but am going crazy as these are just the least of what i face. I even lost 4 months old pregnancy due to his usual aggressive behaviour; he had beaten to pulp because i recorded a Nigerian movie that clashed with the Arsenal Vs Liverpool football match he had set to record. I was admitted in the hospital for days and when he came with roses to apologize, i forgave him.
I just hope i don’t die of depression but i think i need help.

Friday, 18 March 2011


So recently i have been watching alot of home videos, Ghanaian movies to be precise. I actually prefer Ghanian movies to Nigerian movies, i mean their storyline is  always superb. I watched '' Under my pillow'' and  ''Last hour romance''( conclusion to under my pillow) recently and i must confess it was beautiful. Those people are really trying. Ok, so there's something about me that i didn't add to 7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME. please don't tell anyone, i know it sounds lame but i can't help it, wait for it... wait for it. I FANCY PEOPLE THAT DON'T KNOW I EXIST! There i said it! I have alot of them, and i just added one to my long list, his name is Price David Osei. Oh my gosh he's so hott. I usually don't go for muscular guys but this one is exceptional. Here is a picture of him.

 Is he not hott?

Thursday, 17 March 2011


  • I love God
  • I hate noise. Gosh it drives me crazy!
  • My feet are really tiny. I use size 3 and i am in my twenties.
  • I snore ( Please don't tell anyone) Lol.
  • I know this is really embarrassing, i am still scared of shadows.
  •  I love really scary Nigeria movies
  • I sucked my thumb till i was about 17!

Wednesday, 16 March 2011


We all know about the  strange things happening around us, and i must say that these are the signs of the end time. The world is really coming to an end. I was disturbed when i heard about the Japanese disaster, their houses  swept away by the Tsunami.  These are biblical prophecies about the end of the world and i thought i should share them with you.


The bible says in the book of Matthew chapter 22 vs 5 '' For many will come in my name, saying, I am Christ and will mislead many.  
Over the years, we have heard about people claiming they are Christ, they have misled many.


Matthew 24:7 says '' nation will rise against nation and kingdom against kingdom, and in various places there will be famines and earthquakes.


Luke 21:11 says '' And great earthquakes shall be in diverse places, and famines and pestilences;  and fearful sights and great signs shall there be from heaven''.

Some countries are experiencing famine. Examples are Ethiopia, Somalia etc.


The book of Mattehew chapter 24 vs 7   '' nation will rise against nations and kingdom against kingdom, and in various places there will be famines and earthquakes.''
Lately we have heard news about earthquakes. Last year it happened in Haiti and the recent one is Japan which claimed the lives of many.


But all these things are merely the beginning of birth pangs.  Then they will deliver you to tribulation, and will kill you, and you will be hated by all nations on account of my name."  Matthew 24: 8-9. 

Christians are under attack throughout the world today. The Jos crisis in Nigeria is a  good example. In Saudi Arabia, Sudan, North Korea etcetera Christian suffer persecution and often often death for practicing their faith. ( May God help us).


 "And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in the whole world for a witness to all the nations, and then the end shall come.'' Matthew 24:14

The prophecy of  God through radio, the newspaper, television, the translation of the bible into different languages and even the internet. 

With all these being said, it is obvious that the end time is near and we should all re-dedicate our lives to God and say a big NO to the devil and his ways. HELL IS REAL. 

Monday, 14 March 2011


My lovely Award.
Last week, i received a blog award from Myne Whitman and am still very excited about this because it's my first award ever! So i am using this opportunity to say a massive thank you to her.

Friday, 4 March 2011


I married Tayo even though we were not medically compatible (blood-wise). I am AS and she was also AS. I am not sure why I got married to her. Perhaps, it was because of her mesmerizing look, or because she was a very pleasant woman, or because we got on so well during our courtship. After I proposed to her, she suggested we went for blood test which confirmed were both sickle cell carriers. We were devastated, yet we went on with the marriage trusting God for a ‘miracle’.

A couple of years after our wedding, we started trying for our ‘Miracle baby’ but to no avail. One Sunday evening, after dinner, she complained of severe dizziness and nausea, I immediately knew it could be that she was pregnant. The next day, I drove her to our family hospital and the doctor confirmed she was 8 weeks pregnant. We were happy and at the same time frightened about the genotype of the baby. Few weeks after this, she woke up screaming and bleeding, I rushed her to the hospital and the doctor said she had mis-carried the pregnancy because there was a problem with the foetus. We were advised to wait for a while 
before trying for another baby. Six months after, she got pregnant again. I was happy and I prayed for her not to lose this one. I don’t know if I should say God answered my prayer partially because when she had the baby, it had to be through caesarean section, and she had to be transfused. The baby was born and we named her Oluwaseun.
Few weeks after Seun was born, she slept and she never woke up. The autopsy stated that it was cot death and that she suffered from sickle cell anaemia. 

Things got worse between Tayo and I. We got into fights every now and then. I guess we were mad at each other for getting married. A year on, Tayo got pregnant again and gave birth to 
another girl through caesarean section. Shocking and sadly enough, she passed away some few days later. I wasn’t sure if I should be angry with God for giving me these challenges or 
with Tayo for leaving me here on earth with Seyi (the baby). I tried my best as a father to care for Seyi, though it was a bit challenging taking care of a child and going to work. I couldn’t leave her with any member of the family because she’s the only thing that reminds me of my wife. I was giving her a bath two days ago when she said something I am still yet to digest.
''Daddy... I am Seun’’ She had said.
I have never told her about her late sister, how she got to know about Seun was and is still beyond my comprehension. Now I am scared to touch my own daughter, my sunshine, my 
everything. I am scared as hell and I don’t know what to do. Maybe I am going crazy, maybe I am just being superstitious. All I know is that I don't know how I got myself here.